New Hobby????

 I went to this class that my friend invited me to go too when I was having a low moment.  It was a God thing for sure, because I just wanted to go get drunk wasted and yet, I reached out to her and didnt even know she was in town and she invited me to this party AND it was a heart painting.  I knew I needed to go and that I would enjoy it.  I had been wanting to go but didnt have the funds too, but God provided and made a way for me.  I got to talk to her and paint and just relax and enjoy my time in being creative and learning.

 The painting, ended up being a reminder that God holds the key to my heart and when God is ready, I hope he hands over the key to a great Godly man!! :)

 So yesterday, I was kind of wanting to be creative and yet was feeling a little down because I have strayed a bit from God and have been looking in the wrong places for happiness.  I havent intentionally strayed, I was trying to do other things to cover other things, but realized I was running from the problem then just accepting and facing my issue.  The good thing is, now I know what I need to do, so on to focusing on something good and encouraging.  So instead of going to the classes and spending alot of money on that, I thought I should go grab some things and see what I can do with what I learned. 

I wanted to end it here and really thought I should, but knew it was too boring and I could try other stuff.  I did do the reverse kind of things and liked how it turned out.  I do think it looks a little kiddish, but I mean, I cant complain for my first paintings at home.  I have thought about giving these away as gifts with the persons favorite colors.  I have always wanted the people I love and care about to get a white heart tattoo on them like I have since it is my signature, but since alot of people dont or wouldnt do that, I can paint this for them so they will always remember me!! :)

I want to try new things and I might try this heart with a cross that I actually drew at church.  I need to get me some more paint and what not to stalk up on.  I told my friend about it and she seemed interested and so we were thinking about just sharing costs and collecting it from there.  We shall see.  Some of these small hobbies end up dieing young anyways, lol.

My daily vent

 My song for the moment

I think its crazy how you can have a date that meant so much to you and now it really has no meaning...only a memory of once was.  What I'm talking about is the day Mark and I started dating.  It was a date that even after we got married, I still wanted to celebrate.  This year would of been 12 years of us being together.  I know its not like that now and things have changed and I'm sure each reader reading this is probably thinking, why hasn't she moved on from this yet?  The truth of the matter is, I have moved on, I have accepted it, but I think its just a human nature thing to be reminded of a day especially when you've looked for too and carried it with you for almost half your life.  I really never think of us or what we could of been like now, I'm not sure why, I do find that odd.  I guess because I have no idea and it wasn't supposed to be that way. 

Ive been kinda down today and it has to do with that and not feeling well, very emotional and dealing with another ex, but it was my fault.  Through it all today, all I think about is today 12 years ago and how my life has been.  I think about what my life will be like 12 years from now and who might be in it.  I know I will have a new anniversary date and another wedding date, but it sucks to know I have this one always.  I know nothing can change it, but you just move on.  I see the ripple effect of what a divorce does and why its not in Gods plans.  I don't know what Mark thinks, I don't know if he struggles with anything that had to do with the divorce, but I want to think that he thinks about it ever once in awhile.  I know people move on and go on with their lives, as I have, but it does cross my mind.  I see people who are divorced who fought for their marriage who struggle and I see some who have happily moved on.  I know everyones path is different and everyone has their own time tables.  I know some people settle of fear of being alone and some wait patiently on God to deliver their soul mate.  I think I'm partially in the middle.....at the end of the day I will wait, but sometimes I go and seek and I know its not going to happen like that for me.  I really think mine is going to be a fluke kind of thing.  Either I'm going to bump into him or hes going to help out fixing a tire or something and I think we will just hit it off.  I could be totally wrong, but something inside me thinks that's how its going to happen. 

I have my moments of feeling lonely and I have my moments of still getting my stuff together as a single person.  I think sometimes it just sucks cause I know I'm not ready to be in a relationship.  Ive been having a lot of mixed feelings with myself lately.  I know my problem, I know what I need to do and yet, I'm not sure why I don't go and do it.  A part of me, just wants to be rebellious in a way, but I know it wont get me to where I need to be.

I think the more I surround myself with people trying to fill a void, the more I hurt myself, not really hurt myself, but not going to move forward.

I vented....like I normally do....its bedtime for me.

Gun control

So for some reason last night, I didn't sleep at all.  I laid there for 5 hours in the dark like I was sleeping and never actually went to sleep.  I have no idea why, but here I am, ready for work earlier than normal for some reason. I wanted to write some things that have been on my mind and I have been researching lately on gun control.

So lets begin.....

My thoughts on the research I have looked up and have known alot of my life, are this.  The government is wanting to take our guns for control and power.  I grew up with the knowledge that one day our country would take away all of ammunition and therefore would be taking our rights away, the 2nd amendment.  To be honest, my mom talked to me alot about the end of times when I was child.  I remember when  I was a pre-teen, she told me if one day, they ask her to either kill me or her to take the "mark of the beast" (which we know wont be called that in government terms) that she will let them kill me.  I know it might sound harsh and weird to the average Joe who might not know the book of Revelation very well, but I know she was preparing me for it.  I am actually thankful for all the end of times movie my mom collected over the years.  I was scared as a child to watch them and heck.....it scares me now to a point, but I just feel like God has placed it on my heart to see the signs that are leading to the end of times. 

I was also raised that the rapture and all the believers will ascend up to heaven before it gets bad.  After reading the Bible myself and studying it, I don't believe that at all.  No where in the Bible does it say that we wont have to go through that.  I'm not God of course and I don't know when the rapture will be, but I know we will have to face certain things that I know me personally, don't want too in my life time.

I feel like with me studying over the past few weeks, I feel like we are so close to things starting to coming together. The gun control for instance to me is a key factor.  Now I'm not saying these events arnt 100% true, but I believe the Colorado theatre shooting, the Sandy Hook shooting, the Waco shooting and Christopher Dorner, were somewhat plotted by government officials.  I have done research on almost all of them and their are alot of things that don't make sense.  Now your probably reading this and starting to look at me a little crazy.  My advice to you.....is NEVER believe the news 100%.  The news is going to put out certain things and will turn it around and make it sound how they want it too.  I'm not talking about your local news, I'm talking about worldwide news.  The government is a shady operation.  At the end of the day, they want power, control, and want everyone to follow what they believe and want. 

If you read the Bible and know alot about the end of times, then this should be making sense to you.  We know how its going to end, we know that we will become one nation (New World Order) and follow one religion and will have all of our rights taken away and the anti-Christ will rise up and people will follow him and he will look all good and mighty and even do miracles and good works.  Famous people, leaders, religious leaders will say he is the Messiah and he is God and will convince people that its true.  We also know that the Mark of the beast (hand or forehead) will come and you cant buy groceries, gas, food or anything without it and at some point if you don't get it, you will be killed.  So if you know these facts, then why would you or could you know believe that the government is orchestrating this right now?  That maybe they are getting ready for it or starting the affect for everything to happen???  It has to start somewhere and the sad part is, is that its been starting, there are just tons of things we haven't even seen yet or heard yet, BUT, there is information out there about if you look hard enough.

I personally think the whole gun control and Obama "health" has started for it to go in affect.  I know I have researched where they would really like to start putting a "device" into babies when they are born to track them.  Of course they are going to make it sound like its doing the baby good or in case something happens to your baby you will know.....but that's what they are going to do.  They are going to come out and make it sound like this awesome thing and then they are going to get demanding about it and then they are going to be like it, its either this or your life.  See how slowly they take your freedom away???  They are trying to make it where taking guns away is a good thing......uh nope!!!! Their taking your freedom away.  This is what happens in other countries, when governments or high authorities come in and take your stuff or kill you for whatever reason and you don't have a right to defend yourself.  I know most everyone I know is for gun rights and it should be that way.

Sometimes I wonder why God has put me into this learning mode about government and how its ran.  No its not the Illuminati, this is actual news and documents that I read and alot of conspiracy theorists out there that do break things down and question things. 

All I know, is that I don't want to be the one doubting things when sh*t hits the fan or questioning if that is really the mark of the beast or whatever comes our way.  I know alot of Christians are scared to face reality and that the end of times will happen or they don't want the see the signs, but a little research wont hurt to show you what is to come.  I know sometimes I have to make myself walk away and focus on God and what He has for me, because to me, learning this stuff is intriguing.  I feel like Ive been in the dark for so long and the lights came on with me.  I can see alot of people still in the dark and they don't even care, which if they are a believer kinda worries me. 

My question leaving this post is this.....

I understand that some Christians or even non-Christians really don't care or worry about this "right now" anyways kind of a thing, but what if your job or something you do or something you support was for all the evil stuff???  What if you knew that the shows you watch or the music you listen too or the money you spend on was actually doing you harm in the proceeds than what you think?  What doesn't know don't hurt you right????  You have to think...you have to stand before God for things, and if you know wrong, then why not fix it?  God gave us all brains, gave us an ability to learn and to grow and to study his word.  If you don't know the Bible, and what it says, then I recommend you starting there first.  Its just 1 book in the Bible and I do believe some other parts of the end of times are elsewhere in the New Testament if you want to look those up that all tie in together, but just understand what is happening in this country now, will affect you in the end and if you know, you can watch.  The Bible says, to watch and wait on the Lord and His return. 

Luke 12:⁴⁰ Be ye therefore ready also: for the Son of man cometh at an hour when ye think not.

WD-40

DID YOU KNOW?
What IS The Main Ingredient of WD-40?
Before you read to the end, does anybody know what the main ingredient of WD-40?
No Cheating.....

WD-40 ~ Who knew!

I had a neighbor who bought a new pickup.
I got up very early one Sunday morning and saw that someone had spray painted red all around the sides of this beige truck (for some unknown reason).
I went over, woke him up, and told him the bad news.
He was very upset and was trying to figure out what to do....
probably nothing until Monday morning, since nothing was open.
Another neighbor came out and told him to get his WD-40 and clean it off.
It removed the unwanted paint beautifully and did not harm his paint job that was on the truck. I was impressed!

WD-40 who knew?
"Water Displacement #40".
The product began from a search for a rust preventative solvent and degreaser to protect missile parts.
WD-40 was created in 1953, by three technicians at the San Diego Rocket Chemical Company.
Its name comes from the project that was to find a 'Water Displacement' Compound.
They were finally successful for a formulation, with their fortieth attempt, thus WD-40.
The 'Convair Company' bought it in bulk to protect their atlas missile parts.
Ken East (one of the original founders) says there is nothing in WD-40 that would hurt you.
When you read the 'shower door' part, try it.
It's the first thing that has ever cleaned that spotty shower door.
If yours is plastic, it works just as well as on glass.
It's a miracle!
Then try it on your stovetop.
It's now shinier than it's ever been.
You'll be amazed.


WD-40 Uses:
1. Protects silver from tarnishing.
2. Removes road tar and grime from cars.
3. Cleans and lubricates guitar strings.
4. Gives floor that 'just-waxed' sheen without making them slippery.
5. Keeps the flies off of Cows, Horses, and other Farm Critters, as well. (Ya gotta love this one!!!)
6. Restores and cleans chalkboards.
7. Removes lipstick stains.
8. Loosens stubborn zippers.
9. Untangles jewelry chains.
10. Removes stains from stainless steel sinks.
11. Removes dirt and grime from the barbecue grill.
12. Keeps ceramic / terracotta garden pots from oxidizing.
13. Removes tomato stains from clothing.
14. Keeps glass shower doors free of water spots.
15. Camouflages scratches in ceramic and marble floors.
16. Keeps scissors working smoothly.
17. Lubricates noisy door hinges on both home and vehicles doors.
18. It removes that nasty tar and scuff marks from the kitchen flooring.
It doesn't seem to harm the finish and you won't have to scrub nearly as hard to get them off.
Just remember to open some windows if you have a lot of marks.
19. Remove those nasty Bug guts that will eat away the finish on your car if not removed quickly!
20. Gives a children's playground gym slide a shine for a super fast slide.
21. Lubricates gearshift and mower deck lever for ease of handling on riding mowers...
22. Rids kids rocking chair and swings of squeaky noises.
23. Lubricates tracks in sticking home windows and makes them easier to open.
24. Spraying an umbrella stem makes it easier to open and close.
25. Restores and cleans padded leather dashboards in vehicles, as well as vinyl bumpers.
26. Restores and cleans roof racks on vehicles.
27. Lubricates and stops squeaks in electric fans.
28. Lubricates wheel sprockets on tricycles, wagons, and bicycles for easy handling.
29. Lubricates fan belts on washers and dryers and keeps them running smoothly.
30. Keeps rust from forming on saws and saw blades, and other tools.
31. Removes grease splatters from stovetops.
32. Keeps bathroom mirror from fogging.
33. Lubricates prosthetic limbs.
34. Keeps pigeons off the balcony (they hate the smell).
35. Removes all traces of duct tape.
36. Folks even spray it on their arms, hands, and knees to relieve arthritis pain.
37. Florida's favorite use is: 'cleans and removes love bugs from grills and bumpers.'
38. The favorite use in the state of New York, it protects the Statue of Liberty from the elements.
39. WD-40 attracts fish. Spray a little on live bait or lures and you will be catching the big one in no time. Also, it's a lot cheaper than the chemical attractants that are made for just that purpose.
Keep in mind though, using some chemical laced baits or lures for fishing are not allowed in some states.
40. Use it for fire ant bites. It takes the sting away immediately and stops the itch.
41. It is great for removing crayon from walls. Spray it on the marks and wipe with a clean rag.
42. Also, if you've discovered that your teenage daughter has washed and dried a tube of lipstick with a load of laundry, saturate the lipstick spots with WD-40 and rewash. Presto! The lipstick is gone!
43. If you spray it inside a wet distributor cap, it will displace the moisture, allowing the engine to start.

P.S.
As for that Basic, Main Ingredient.......
Well.... it's FISH OIL....
Who would have guessed ? ? ?

whats been up with me lately

Ive been slacking on my diet and I hate it.  I cant complain, its all me with my weaknesses and laziness.  Ive been semi busy too with life and today and yesterday I caught up with a bunch of things.  I cleaned house super good yesterday and today I worked on the yard, made it look all spiffy and even went out and cleaned the inside and outside of my car.  I feel like I'm caught up to date and tomorrow I'm off too and I can go to the IRS and hopefully get all that out of the way and then I can start preparing for my surgery.  I know I have alot of Dr appointments before so I'm sure Ill have to mow again before then.

For the past two days too, I have been watching all the Twilight movies....haha....I'm ending the third one as we speak and about to start on the 4th.  I think it all started when I watched Twilight on TV and since nothing was on, I thought I should start watching them.  Now I'm blabbing.....but I have to admit, I have enjoyed staying home and just catching up on things.  Ive enjoyed being alone and just enjoying time with my dog, grandpa and home.  Today my grandpa and the pup went and visited my moms and grandmas cemetery.    Today was such a beautiful day and the weather was perfect.  It was my kind of weather and I didn't want to waste such a perfect day to be outside and get things that needed done....done.

Might be my Easter dress

we were chillaxin

This face CRACKED ME UP......it reminded me of the Grinch movie people, lol

Besties at Casino fun!

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SHE WON!!

did my nails...

loved playing with the lighting

yes i would like to add strawberry to that :)

my new spring decoations

chemtrails?

 

the sun was bright

thought that was cool

best man ever!!

my grandpas sister, she was so young

its weird to see my grandpas name on there...

finally some color in my wardrobe

love it

perfect shot

shes such a happy dog!!!

Christians watch!

Dont just see what its about and not watch it.......your not hurting me, your hurting yourself!!!  I don't know 100% if this is real....meaning it came from Illumi Corp, but either way, everything this man said, pretty much sums up what I have learned and also, what scripture says.  I think alot of Christians are in denial and non Christians that this crap is happening right now.  If you believe in the Bible and end of times, why would this not be happening???  People think I'm crazy, they think I just read a bunch of lies, everyday and that I'M CRAZY!!!!  I have NO problem with their thoughts on me.  I bet you, most Christians (believers) when things do start hitting the fan (which they are) will come and ask me some questions.  I feel in my heart, that God has opened my heart up to learning what is going around me and to watch for signs and what is happening.  I have prayed for God to show me what He wants me to learn and to know.  I know this is a scary time and alot of believers don't want to think its really happening or that its close, but you really need to open up your eyes!!!!  Its not doing you any good to not know how evil this world is and how close we really are......it really isn't.