Memories

Memories

You said for better or for worse
You said till death do us part
You promised forever

So what happened?

You told me that there wasnt love there anymore
You said I was abusive emotionally and physically
You said you were tired of it

How come you couldnt stand by my side?
How come you gave up on me?
How come you stopped loving me?

I was trying to better myself
but you said it was too late

I was praying for us
but you still left

I was still willing to make it work as much work that needed to be done
but you said no

You ran to someone else who could make you happy
when I was your wife praying for you

I didnt speak to you for 6 months and then wished you Happy Fathers Day
and you said thank you

I cried

We started talking and my emotions came back
and you didnt know

I seen you and sat down and talked to you and cried
and you still looked at me in disgust

You were my best friend that knew me inside out
and I knew you inside out

Now we are just friends who talk when need to be
but I would take that over nothing

You still have part of my heart
and I dont know if I want you to have it all or give it back

I want to love like I loved you

You say we both have strayed from God
but we have strayed from each other

How did our lives get like this?
We both arnt happy

We both are searching for something more
something better, when really we are under a vow

How could we let the devil win?
How did he defeat us and our marriage?

I thought we were strong
I thought we had conquered more than most and could still smile

Why do I miss you?
You hurt me

How could I still love you so much
when you left?

I know I wasnt perfect
but neither were you

You treated me like a princess
and you deserved better

But I thought you were my soul mate
my everything

You were the best husband I could ask for
but I wish you led me in Christ

I depended on you too much
when I should of leaned on God

Even if we never end up together
I want to say thank you for always being there

You were a big part of my life
that held my hand through the hard times

You gave up alot for me and sacrificed alot
and I always knew, even if I didnt seem like it

Your a good man with a big heart who made some mistakes
but I forgive you as Christ has forgiven you

You will always be my first love, my husband,
and the father to my 3 precious babies

We will always have our memories
the good and the bad!