Been busy

I have been so busy lately.  I feel like I don't have any time to do anything and when I do have a few hours of nothing to do, I'm resting.  I enjoy being busy and getting alot of hours at work.  I love how God has been providing and how he never seizes to amaze me.

Ive been planning my birthday trip for over a month.  Its what I do!!! I know my birthday is coming and I start planning or have some sort of plan of where I'm going or what new things I wanna do.  I'm still on the fence to be honest where I wanna go.  Both places are the same distance, but one place I know all about and the other I don't really know much about and even googling it, I still cant exactly figure out what I want to do.  The other place, I know EXACTLY what we could do, so we don't kill any time on figuring out what we can do.  Does that make sense?  Its times like this, that I miss Mark, cause he would always sit down at the computer and figure out the fun things to do in each town.  I just don't have patience for it.  I tried and I got no where.  I also invited my friend over so we both could figure it out and well.......we didn't get anywhere either.

I know when as it gets closer, I'm going to figure it out and it all will work out.  For the past month I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to afford it, because times have been so tight.  I still have all my needs are met, but really haven't had any extra.  I remember praying about it and wondering if I should "blow" money on a trip, but haven't really went out and did anything for myself in awhile.  I really need to get out and get some time away and just have fun.  I don't plan on spending 1000.00 or anything, but just enough that I can enjoy some good meals and stay in a nice hotel and have some fun money to play with.  I have been saving and haven't even gone out and done anything all month so every penny would be saved for my birthday.  Even a few days ago, I didn't see it really happening, but then I sat down, calculated everything and I felt like God has put this peace within me and its going to be okay.   To be honest, God had always put a peace within me, for he saw what I never did.  I thought maybe I was being selfish or irresponsible thinking that money could go elsewhere or put back for a rainy day, but God just was kinda telling me...."Don't worry, it'll all work out!!!"  I feel blessed and I cant wait for my birthday!!

I really don't know what my life would be like if I didn't have God in my life and I honestly don't want to know.  It saddens me to see non-believers struggle and try to live their life solely on themselves and them trying to figure it all out, when all you need is God and to have faith that he will work out everything to our good.  I love just surrendering my life, my finances, my health and my problems to God and just give them to him and tell him, 'I give them to you', 'I don't know what to do', or 'I cant handle this on my own.'  I know even believers struggle with this and I do too!!! I think its our human nature to want to handle problems on our own, but its sooooooo much easier when we give them over to God!!! :)

Another thing that has happened to me lately, is I was asked out to dinner by this man.  I was flattered!!! I turned it down, but it was the thought that means alot.  Most guys these days, or the ones Ive came across, don't really, 'ask you out to dinner', its more of a "hang out" kind of thing.  I'm not sure if its the whole money issue or what, but it was still sweet.  Ive said this before, but I just have no desire in dating, or dating anyone.  I'm happy figuring out who I am.  I still have the moments where I get lonely and miss affection, but I think Ive been driven to take care of my own and to work hard for my stuff.  Another thing I noticed about myself is I just "know" God will "show" me who I'm supposed to be with.  I have a feeling that I will be drawn to them and there will be that 'spark' of attraction and of peace.  I have felt that in my heart and until that day, I wait.  I'm okay right now with waiting.  Ask  me in a year, I might not be.  I just know as each year that goes by, I get more antsy and more impatient, because I still want a family before 30.  God knows the future, I cant make it all fall into place, I have to allow God to do that!! He knows whats best for me and for my future mate!!!

Day 14, Week 2

I still am loving this product.  You might not can see a HUGE difference this week, but its honestly mostly more noticeable on my jaw area.  Its where it was getting bad and it just had patches of painful acne.  That almost is totally gone.  I would say by next Wednesday, there might not be any left.  I still have the little red dots, but I can cover it with makeup.  Alot what you do see is there because I picked at myself.  I can sit here and say, that I would rather pick at my face and get rid of the pores I see and have pimples later, then it just sit there.  It drives me nuts!!! I wasn't blessed with a clear porcelain face, so I have to work with what I got.

I also have been feeling better with energy, but to be honest, today it hit me.  I really was so exhausted that I was scared I was going to fall asleep standing up at work.  I don't know what happened.  It seems like to me that I'm going to start my period soon, but I'm still not due for another week an a half.  I started 5 days early last time, so I don't know if that's what will happen this time.  I was hoping those pills would make me all balanced out, but I have to be realistic here and give my body and the pills time to adjust for a few months.  Just because I see it in my face, my inside could be still adjusting slower. 

I hadn't said this yet, but I was meaning to put it in the last weeks post, but when I had posted my blog from the first time of starting these pills, I had a friend of mine tell me she took them and she stood by them.  In fact she was a consultant for them and took a year off from taking them and started having a thyroid problem and started back on them and within 2 weeks, felt so much better.  I have been recommending them to alot of women and they are seeing the difference and how they work, just by looking at me. 

I know I still am naturally going to break out and get blemishes every once in awhile, but my face doesn't hurt anymore and I'm getting more confidence back up, which I am totally excited for. 

Countdown begins!!!!!!

Till my birthday!!!!!  

Hydrogen Perxoide

Almost every household has a bottle of hydrogen peroxide lurking beneath their bathroom or kitchen sink. While everyone knows that hydrogen peroxide is useful for preventing infection from scrapes and cuts due to its antiseptic and antimicrobial properties, many people ignore the fact that hydrogen peroxide is an effective mouthwash and teeth whitening agent. I have been using hydrogen peroxide as a part of my daily oral hygiene regimen and have noticed a discernible difference in the whiteness of my teeth and the overall health of my mouth.
Hydrogen peroxide can be found in the pharmacy section of most drugstores in a dark brown opaque bottle. The reason that it is kept in an opaque brown bottle is that light will actually cause the hydrogen peroxide to break down and weaken its potency. In any case, just look for a brown bottle with a white cap, which is the ubiquitous way of storing hydrogen peroxide around the country. While this should not be a problem if you just buy your hydrogen peroxide from the local drugstore like Walgreens or Longs Drugs, it is important to get a 3% hydrogen peroxide solution, which is the maximum potency that is generally accepted to be safe for biological and health purposes. Any hydrogen peroxide sold in a drugstore should be 3%, but double check to make sure that you have not inadvertently purchased a bottle of hydrogen peroxide for industrial use instead of household use.
Hydrogen peroxide is useful as a mouthwash due to its antiseptic properties, the same properties that render hydrogen peroxide effective in preventing infection in cuts and scrapes. Hydrogen peroxide is also an effective whitening agent, and you will notice that almost every home teeth whitening kit has hydrogen peroxide listed as one of its active ingredients. Most of those home teeth whitening kits are ridiculously expensive however, since most oral hygiene manufacturers are trying to cash in on the fad. It is very easy to accomplish the nearly the same result yourself, however, with a much more affordable bottle of hydrogen peroxide from the drugstore.
I have found that I prefer hydrogen peroxide as a pre-brushing oral rinse. To begin the process, it is best to rinse your mouth out with ordinary water first to rinse your mouth of any debris. After this is accomplished, measure out a small amount (a couple of tablespoons should do it) of hydrogen peroxide into a cup and rinse your mouth with the peroxide for thirty to sixty seconds. If you like, you can just take a small swig from the bottle, which is what I usually do myself. Almost immediately the hydrogen peroxide will start to bubble and foam, which is a result of the chemical reaction between the hydrogen peroxide and the contaminants in your mouth. It is important not to use too much hydrogen peroxide at one time since its volume will expand in your mouth due to the foaming action. The foaming action will penetrate to all areas of your mouth, even between your teeth and will help to rid your mouth of harmful bacteria that can cause bad breath or gum disease. The hydrogen peroxide instructions on the bottle suggest diluting the hydrogen peroxide with equal parts water before using as an oral rinse, but nearly every dentist I have consulted on this issue has stated that dilution is unnecessary. After rinsing your mouth with the hydrogen peroxide, then flush your mouth again with water and brush your teeth like normal. You will find that your teeth feel cleaner and are noticeably whiter after this process is repeated for several days.
In conclusion, the whitening and antiseptic properties of hydrogen peroxide make hydrogen peroxide an excellent mouthwash for overall oral health. It may take several applications of peroxide for the whitening to be noticeable, but afterwards your teeth will be significantly whiter at a fraction of the cost of purchasing a home teeth whitening kit.


So I read this a couple of weeks ago and have been wanting to try it.  My friend and I went to the store tonight and she asked me why I'm wanting it.  I told her I was going to rinse my mouth out with it and she looked at me like I was crazy!   I don't know how its going to be, but I'm going to do it!!! I'm motivated, I'm broke and I still want my white teeth!!! :)  Lets see if I notice a difference!! 

Oh and it cost me like .57!!

Its that time....

Its that time of the year to decorate fore AUTUMN!!!!  I decorate two times, one for Halloween and the other for Thanksgiving.  I dont change the small decorations, but I change of course the spiders, the foot and hand in the oven, and the pumpkin and I switch it to harvest and pilgrim type of decorations.  I love decorating for the seasons.  I have been having the house open since the cooler weather has came and refuse to turn the air back on even though today its kinda warm.  I also love the scents of fall with my candles on the table and I also have some in scentsy.  I cant wait till it gets even cooler!!!

Day 7 / Week 1

So its officially been 7 days, a whole week since I started the organic Marratech Plus pills.  I have felt really good, had a lot of energy and have been really happy.  I think I do the opposite of what things are supposed to do for me.  For instance, my eye sight gets better, I get a type of cancer that's either more common for the older or younger, NyQuil makes me stay awake rather than puts me to sleep, its just those kind of things.  So these pills were supposed to make me grouchy but instead makes me happy.

Ive had compliments actually the past few days on my face.  My face has already started clearing up.  I have had people that are around me alot come up to me and tell me that its not as red and its clearing up, then they ask what kind of pills they were again cause they knew how bad it was getting and they are interested.  Ive also had a few coworkers come up to me and notice how happy I am, because the week before, I scared them with my depression.  I'm pretty easy to read and you know when I'm in a bad mood, good mood, or something is really bothering me.  I go from one extreme to the other, I'm not really easy, laid back, go with the flow kind of girl.

Ive noticed even with my body how I'm not really hungry or craving anything.  Also, today actually I was told it looks like I'm losing weight.  Its one of those things, where I'm trying, but I'm not trying.  I just want to eat better and feel better.  You hear all the time that when you eat better, you will feel better and lose weight and blah blah blah, but.........its totally true!!!!!  Its changed my attitude, my movement, my energy.  Most people who know me, know I eat pretty healthy, more healthy then the average Joe, but I want to eat even better!

So this is day 7, week 1 and I can already tell a difference.  Remember, that they said I should tell a difference by the first month, but really give it 2 months and I can already see a change.  I started noticing a difference in like day 3.  So far, I stand by these pills and I love how they make me feel.  I recommend them to anyone, any woman who is having a hard time or wants to get balanced in her body.  I don't see any harm in them, considering they are organic, all natural.  I cant wait till next week, when I do week 2.  I'm hoping that it will be even better for my face.  I still get some on my jaw line, but its not everyday and its not as bad or painful.  Its already been going away on the cheek area, which recently just started to go up on my face.  So here's the picture!!!!   I know, I know....I look rough everytime, its because I take the pics after a long day at work, which every Wednesday I work, so this is what your going to get, ha!!! :)

Apple Spice Cupcakes with sweet frosting!

So Im pretty sure Im going to make these!!!!! All homemade too!!!!!   :) 

I'm happy I'm content

I sit here wanting to write, with really nothing to say.  I think this screen has been up for about 5 minutes as I think, look at my fingernails and occasionally look up at the TV for the last night of Big Brother Showtime.  I'm really going to miss this show.  It has kept me occupied every night from 11-2am while I try and go to sleep.  I have watched every season since it came out about 12, 13 years ago.  This is BB14, but they had 2 one year.

I'm excited to write about my pills and to do my weekly face update from the pills tomorrow.  I don't want to say too much tonight, but I like it so far.

Work has been really good to me lately too.  Some of the workers at work really would like me to move up to manager, but Ive been praying about it.  I really do enjoy my job, and I have been there longer than any worker there, but I also have seen so many people love their job, move up and then hate their job and eventually quit.  So far, I still enjoy going into work.  I rarely ever just dread going into work or not look forward into going.  I try and take any extra hours or any person shift that cant work.  I need the money and I would love to eventually have a regular 40 hour job, but God has also placed my photography back in my heart alot lately too.  I am actually surprised how eager and willing I am to learn and study in photography again and to build my business and clientele back up.  I know myself though and I always get insecure or don't have confidence in what I do.  I always want to strive for perfection and be the best I can be, but then when I get insecure, sometimes I just set the camera down and walk away until I can re-build myself back up.  Another thing I notice about myself even at my job is I doubt myself alot.  I remember being this way back when I was in school when I had to take tests.  I would psyche myself out and end up forgetting everything.  Today the big bosses at work came in and asked me questions I SHOULD KNOW, and I was like....."ummmm".......I knew the answers, my boss knew I knew the answers, but I couldn't say it, I CAN DO IT!!!!  So at one point one of the ladies asked me a question, 4 hours later asked me the same question and I was again like "ummm"......and you know what happened?  My boss demonstrated to me what the question was and I did it!!!! She pretended she was a customer and I passed, on what I should do, but when it came down to explaining what I would do, I cant!!! Its just the craziest thing!!!

I noticed though, I'm like that with alot.  I cant tell you how or why I do things, I just do them and it works out.  I remember when I worked at the school, I was the worse at just doing stuff for the kids instead of teaching them how.  I know I'm a visual learner.  Alot of times, I can see something and re-make it without instructions.  I think that's why photography fascinated me alot.  I remember sitting there and looking at different photographers and wanting to do what they did....it fascinated me, it intrigued me.  I had to study to learn on how certain things were done, but it was going out and actually trying myself that motivated me to learn.

I remember the other day one of the managers told me.....I want you to move this here, move that there and bring this over here.  I stood there, looking at her like.....???????  In my head, I'm thinking, let me do my thing....let me work my magic.  I know alot of times, I do play the ditsy, blonde, Jessica Simpson role, it honestly cracks me up.  I mean honestly, sometimes I am, but in reality, you get away with stuff.  People either look at you like your dumb and you end up surprising them with something else that they were shocked you would know, or people role their eyes and be like, "Oh goodness Rachel", or (and this is the best one), People just do stuff for you because they think you don't know how.  Now........I told my secrets.....don't get me wrong.....because I have been alot better with that last one.  I used to use it on Mark all the time honestly, but I think he knew what I was up too.  I have a problem with learning stuff that I never think I'm going to use.  Its kinda like history to me.  History doesn't fascinate me, because I feel like it can do nothing for my future use.....yes I know.....you learn from other peoples mistakes and what not, but it doesn't tickle my fancy, so I would totally suck at Jeopardy, in which I do!!!

God makes us all different.  Since Mark leaving I have learned alot with that.  I was really in my bubble and if you wernt in my bubble and lived the way I did, then you were wrong and I didn't understand why you did things the way you did and you should be stronger to do things right and blah blah blah.  I  love how my eyes have been opened to other peoples short comings, trials, mistakes, addictions, flaws, weaknesses and opinions.  I still catch myself feeling the same way I used too, but I really have been more open to just letting people live their life even if I agree or don't.  I know now I cant control anyone and I cant make someone do something or not do something that I disagree with.  I can only offer my insight or opinion or biblical knowledge, but in the end, its up to them.  That really was a HUGE obstacle that I had to learn and accept.

Another thing is, I'm so happy with where I am in life right now.  I'm CONTENT!!  I'm happy that I'm content should I say.  Of course, Ive said before I would want to be married again with a family and I know that would fill my heart with more love and joy, but for the moment, God has me right where he wants me and I'm content.  He has given me peace and has taken care of me financially and has filled my heart with His love and I catch myself often daily, just smiling and shedding a tear and thanking Him for everything he has done for me and blessed me with.  I know this part of my life isn't going to last forever and EVERY SINGLE TIME, I think of my future husband, I get this rush of peace, like hes waiting on me, in a distance.  I remember today, I was sitting in my car at a light and just thought of "him" and I was at peace.  I have no desire to date, to "cuddle", to meet random men, to text or call men, its just the craziest thing.  I know before, I found comfort or a need of affection or to feel wanted or to feel pretty, but its like, and I know this might sound mean, but now I feel like their opinions don't matter to me.  The one it really matters is God, my friends and who my future husband is going to be.  Now when I get complimented on a picture or in real life, of course it feels good and is flattering, but I don't seek it, I don't put myself out there to get a compliment.  I think before I got really insecure when he left and I just wanted to still feel desired since I obviously got rejected.  I don't know, never been through that before, but my confidence is getting built up and I don't have to be any certain person for anyone.  I know who God has for me will love me for me and will see my love for God and I know that will attract him.  :)   Its such a wonderful feeling to know that and not have to worry about a future spouse, that God already has it under control.  When he knows I'm ready and the other person is ready....it will happen!!!

So, I ended up not having anything to say, to of course finding something, lots of things.  This was an easy post, it was a good heart to heart to my readers and now you know a little more about me and also know where I am today with where life is and my views on it.


I hope everyone has a good week and a good day tomorrow.....its hump day!!!! Its my 1st weekly look on my new pills!! :)   See ya tomorrow.

P.S.  You love my new signature?????  :)

Photo Phone Dump

These pics are probably from the last month or so!!!