I had my Dr.'s appointment today. I had to go to another Dr because I don't have insurance. So I did all my paper work and waited for an hour. I knew I was going to be there for awhile, so I wasn't impatient. When they called me to the back, they weighed me and I can proudly say I am 10 pounds lighter!!! The lady took me to a room and talked with me. She told me since I had cancer before that I cant get birth control and there was no point to have the pap smear. I was wanting to get on birth control because I know for a fact I have a hormone imbalance and other than changing my whole life naturally, that was the only thing that I found that would help it. Something that bothered me was I also studied that in birth control, there is a synthetic hormone, which is fake for your body which can cause cancer. So here I am in a lose lose situation. Do I keep my hormone imbalance which can cause cancer and be miserable, or do I take birth control which can cause cancer and try to feel normal?????
Let me just say this. A week ago, I was talking to the bestie and I just wasn't at peace with taking birth control. As much as I truly wanted to be on it to feel normal again, I just had doubt. I prayed about it, I even asked my grandpa and the best friend to pray about it. I thought it was silly, that I was asking people to pray for me to take birth control or not, but I ended up making the appointment anyways. I was at peace with making the appointment, even though in the back of my mind, I had the doubt.
So I scheduled it for today and when I was sitting there talking to this lady, she told me that the Dr isn't going to give me birth control, cause hes not risking his license. I told her it was okay, but what other options do I have? She didn't have any to tell me, other than asking my urologist to see if it was okay, get my paper work and then go back and make another appointment. When things get like this, I just want to throw my hands up and not care anymore, cause its just aggravating. But.........then........she finally said something. She said, you can always try naturally. She told me to go to our natural organic store, which is by my house and told me to talk to a lady there, that she can do a test and help me.
I leave and call my urologist. I leave a message and ask about birth control with him. My gynecologist did give me birth control last year, but the lady said that because hes a specialist he can watch me better. I then felt led to just go to the store and see what they have and how much it is. I get there and tell the lady just a few things and she goes, "I know what you need". She hands me this bottle and then tells me everything about it. It sounded perfect. It was a bit costly, but the more I talked to her and this other lady that came in, which was a midwife, the more they knew exactly what was going on and how this worked. They told me that women who tried for years to get pregnant took this pill and got pregnant within months afterwards. She looked at me and told me by my breakouts on my face that it was hormonal, which I knew. She said with Birth control that it still will make you out of whack, but this pill will help balance all the hormones out. If one is too high then it will bring it down and whats low it will being it back up to where its supposed to be. I even asked about the negative side effects and they both told me that it will make me grouchy while its balancing out, but I knew there was going to be a negative because of the body getting back on track. I have to take 1 pill, 3 times a day and the first month I should see a small difference, but by 2 months, I should feel alot better. They gave me paperwork on it and everything and I even went home and googled it and there were no bad remarks on it.While I was reading this paperwork though, it hit home. It said that with my hormone imbalance it can cause anger and fear, which I had when married. They thought I was border line bi-polar because of my spurts. Also, it said if I had infertility issues or women troubles that this will help it. Hormones are a bigger factor that I ever could of imagined. They really control......almost everything, from your sexual libido, to your eating habits, to your moods, and then down to your ultimate health. I knew they wernt trying to sell me it, because they would recommend stuff and wouldn't recommend stuff. They were very helpful and they could answer almost any question. I actually learned alot today by talking to them.
Another thing was my salt intake. I crave salt and they told me that they sell all natural salt that is actually good for you. They let me try some and I bought some for like $1.00 a pound. Iodized salt is actually bleached and that's what you put in your body and it has stuff in it that doesn't work well with your body. This salt had so much flavor and I was excited cause my grandpa can eat some too since its natural.
Ive been on this health kick lately, I really feel like God has been touching me about putting fake things and bad food in my body. I have watched my salt intake the past week and have noticed a HUGE difference. I don't feel bloated and haven't retained alot of fluid and feel good all around.
So.....I sit here all excited about these pills and I need to see if they officially work....so I thought for the first 60 days of them, I'm going to take a picture a week to show my face and see if its improving or not. Tonight should be the worse one, since its Day 1. Who knows, 30 or 60 days from now I might not of changed and it might not of worked, but I'm praying that God has directed me to this. I feel at peace and I feel so excited. Another thing that excited me was when I opened up the bottle today and smelled it, it didn't smell like anything!!!! It didn't stink or have a fowl odor.....it was natural!!!! :)
So......heres to hopefully becoming balanced and normal again!!!!! :)Heres me a year ago......as you can see, no blemishes......... It got bad....fast!!!!!!! I know, I know....I never look the same in pics....I had a very long day, so the picture before wasnt supposed to be cute, because well.......its for my blemishes....haha!!!! Its bedtime for me!!! Man, Im looking rough.....lol....now that Im comparing them....lol.....oh well....I guess thats what divorce does to someone....lol....goodnight my friends...now Im just yacking!!!
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