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I don't understand

Ive thought about it a million times and more

Why is it so hard?

Why cant I close this door?

I know your my weakness

I know I still love you

but your with someone else

and I just don't know what to do.

Ive tried to shake you and tried everything I possibly could

I shut you out of my life and deleted your family

thinking it would help me

but you were always this huge memory

This memory that wouldn't go away of everything we went through

the good times, the bad times and even our connection.

We fought, we made up, we laughed, we played

but there was something when we touched......our affection.

I never had someone touch me the way you did and the way you made me feel

I know that's why I compare everyone to you and I know its not fair.

I know I need to fully move on, because you have someone else

I just know what we had will always be rare.

I don't know why I feel like I need you in my life

I don't know if its for selfish reasons or if there even is a reason

I know without you there, I feel like a piece of me is missing

I just hope and pray that it changes each season

Each season that goes by, I have my ups and downs

sometimes it gets better, sometimes I frown

You really are a good man who has a loving heart

your a wonderful father who sacrifices alot

I don't know what the future holds

I know I want you to be happy with your new girl

Life isn't fair sometimes and we don't know which way its going to twirl

I know whatever roads we face, we will always have respect for one another

We are both strong, weak, lovers and fighters

I just pray for Gods guidance each day

and hope and pray that fate comes my way.

I don't know what the Heavenly Father has in store for me

but I hold on to faith that it will make me happy

I want you to be happy in wherever your life leads you

Happy, satisfied in everything you do

I know we will always carry a piece of ourselves with each other

Everything is going to be okay, we're strong, we will conquer!!!!

A fav song