Ups and Downs Pt 2

Its been getting better. We went to church on Wednesday and we even went to church today. Let me tell you something about today's church service.

Last night, I woke up at 2am, because Mark made a loud noise cause he was up. I couldn't go back to sleep, so started reading the Love Dare book that I actually bought a long time ago, but never did it. I wanted to start it and see and I read the beginning. It then gave me this scripture verse.

Jeremiah 17:9 - The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked: who can know it?

As we were getting ready for church today, I read him that scripture verse. We get to church and the preacher started talking about how he has had this topic on his mind lately and he didn't know why, but he needed to say it. He then says to go to this scripture verse. WHAT???? How can that not be the Lord? His whole preacher service was about putting God first. Not putting worldly things in our spiritual path that can let us stray from him. What is making our spiritual path sick? Is it porn? video games? Internet? drinking? drugs? Is any of these things more important than reading your bible? getting closer to God? talking to him? It made me think. How much time do I spend on the Internet? How much time do I read my Bible? Do they balance out? Not even close, considering I never look at my Bible other than church time, and I'm being honest. I'm not proud to say that. But things are going to change. I want God number one in my life, in my marriage, in my future kids lives. I want all of God in me, leading me, guiding me. I want to feel close to him. I want to love him and know that he is always there. I want my husband to feel the same way. I don't want this worldly life to separate us. I don't want us to give up on a vow that we both stood before God and committed. I knew taking those vows that there was no turning back. More reasons why it was a scary day. But at the end, when I said them, I meant them and there was no turning back. Things get hard, but you work through them. I know this and now I'm teaching my husband. I think he is weaker than me, in the Spiritual Path. Ive always been strong to that. I'm going to be a submissive wife.

Please just say prayers for us as we get stronger with each other and with God!!!