Friday:I last posted that we will be going to counseling. I think just in the first meeting, we got alot of things straight. Our relationship has been so much better. But we had started off kinda at 75% into everything. So real quick, I had to go back from 1%....my early childhood. I needed to tell her everything that I had gone through, with me as a kid, my mom dieing when I was 16, me getting cancer at 19, losing our babies and then trying for so long. She then agreed to meet with me by myself the next time, which is actually later today. I think its a good thing. I need to get things off my chest....I need to help me with my anger and controlling. When I say anger, I can just snap if I don't get my way. I don't like that. And I guess the controlling goes with it too. I like for things to go my way. Its my way or no way, and I know I cant do that anymore. I know I took and took from our relationship and Mark blames himself for letting it happen so long. But I want to change...and I'm doing that :)
Saturday: I had to work Saturday at Lane Bryant. My actual like full day learning everything. I was overwhelmed. I am so used to my job. I know everything about my job and I teach other people how to do things and for it to be reversed....I didn't like it. But I'm learning and catching on. It was a long day and my feet killed me. I'm not used to standing on my feet for so long and it didn't help that my shoes made me have blisters. At one point, Mark had to bring me some different shoes. After that, I hurried to Applebees where I met Mark and a few friends for Dinner and Drinks to celebrate Marks birthday. We then went to a local club/Bar. It was so packed that you had to stand outside to wait to go in cause the capacity was too much. Its just not my kind of environment, but I tried to not complain, cause apparently Mark wanted to go.
Sunday: We wanted to go to church, but since we stayed out so long, we didn't go. I didn't even take my grandpa, but its a good thing, cause apparently he has some accidents, lol. I guess his stomach was upset.
Monday: It was bad weather. It was supposed to have freezing roads and it was so cold that night, that we canceled our school board meeting which I was happy about.
Tuesday-Wednesday: Boring days at work. Went to Zumba on Tuesday with my friend Rebecca and then we did Power Sculpt. That was hard and I'm too fat for it. Maybe if I lose some weight in Zumba, I can do that class better, lol. Also on Wednesday, Mark came down with a stomach bug, so he went to work late.
Thursday: Mark came home earlier than usual, I guess cause he didn't feel good. My worked was horrible that day. I got in an argument with my boss. I told her she was delusional. Because, she is, lol. We had the health inspector come to the school. It so happens that he goes to most of the people at the schools church, so they know him. I was around him for awhile while he talked about what we need to do to change, but I had to attend to kids and the phone so I left alot while my boss and a school board member talked to him. Anyways...to make it short....we arnt supposed to serve frozen foods unless we have a mop sink. A mop sink is supposed to cost around 1000.00 to install it with pipes and drain. Our school don't have that kind of money laying around. So our next option will be to stop selling frozen foods and sell just shelf bought stuff like Ramon Noodles and Mac & cheese and chips and stuff like that. I hadn't gone to Sam's in some time to get food, so we were like bone dry. I told the teachers that I was going to Sam's on Tuesday, cause we were going to have a meeting on Monday and talk about what we want to do about the food. Well my boss went to Sam's last night, cause some parent complained and spent so much money on food. So while we were putting it all up today, I asked her...Do you think we are doing the right thing by selling frozen foods when he said not too? She said, I think we are doing the right thing by helping the kids have food to eat. I said, but the Bible says to follow the rules of the land. I really worry about my boss. I don't know whats wrong with her and why and how she looks at things. Alot of things she talks about doesn't follow God. I then told her, if he comes in, I'm not going to lie about the food. She then gets all upset and is like, I never asked you too, I would expect you too. Then I go to the office, cause I was done. She comes in and is like, why do you make sound like the bad guy? I told her, because you bend the truth alot, (which she does). I don't know what to do. But anyways...later on that day we got into it way deeper and names and stuff were being called. Later on in the afternoon, during painting time, the guy came back and said everything that I had said. I was right!!! She was wrong!! I'm not trying to sit here and say ohhh Rachel is right. In our discussion, she said....I GET TIRED OF PEOPLE COMING IN HALF OF THE CONVERSATIONS, AND THEN Y'ALL JUST MAKE IT HOWEVER YOU WANT.....ME AND MR TAYLOR (school board member) WAS THERE THE WHOLE TIME AND WE KNOW WHAT WE ARE DOING. lol....she was wrong, so apparently, she didn't get it or wasn't listening or something. I know Monday in the meeting it should be interesting. Us staff are just tired of her and how she does things. She doesn't approach things the right way. We wish she would just not come sometimes as sad as that seems.
Thursday Dr appointment: I left a little early at work to go to my GYN appointment. Mark woke up still feeling sick so he didn't go to work and didn't go with me. I was for some reason really nervous. I don't get nervous at Dr's appointments. My blood pressure was even 120/80 and that's not like me. Anyways, he came in and told me....What are we going to do? I said, Give up, lol. He said no. He said, he thinks its time to see a specialist and that's really what I was going there for. I agreed. He told me he wasn't going to charge me for my appointment and that he will get the information for me and I can pick who I want and I can call them that I didn't need a referral. He said, He wasn't going to check my hormone imbalance, that the specialist would. He leaves to grab me some information and the nurse comes in and gives it to me. I go by and talk to him and I looked at the different names and noticed that there was none here in my city. He said, we don't have a specialist here. I was like great!!! So if we are going to go, we need to go to a bigger city, like Ft Worth/Dallas to see someone. Our vehicles are really good right now to travel and on top of that, we need to find a time to both go when we are off. I don't know what to do. I guess I'm going to pray about it and see what happens.
Thursday Night: I was supposed to go to Zumba, but I didn't. I was just so tired. Mark wakes me up and asks me if I wanted to go with him to Walgreen's so he could get some medicine. I got up and went....then went and got something to eat and came home. I wasn't on the computer, so I just looked on my phone to see if anyone wrote me in facebook. Right then and there was a friend invite.......
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